How it began

Hi! I’m Deidre. Thanks for being here. This deck was born from a season when the questions I’d always relied on stopped working. Loss does that. It removes the scaffolding you didn’t know was there — the routines, the roles, the way you understood yourself in relation to someone else. What I found, once the immediate grief softened a little, was that I didn’t know who I was anymore. Not in a dramatic way. In a quiet, disorienting one.
I started asking myself gentler questions. Not “how do I move on?” but “what do I notice right now?” Not “who am I supposed to be?” but “who have I always been, underneath all of it?” I wrote them down. I sat with them. The deck grew from that practice.
It isn’t meant to heal you or guide you somewhere. It’s meant to keep you company while you figure out where you already are.

